overdoing everything

i hate the holiday seasons. yes it's time for family gathering, awesome food, drinking sessions and great company but it's also the over spending, over eating and over indulging. i hate it.

i've been baking and it seems that the moment the cookies comes out of the oven, it goes straight into my mouth and the excuse is "i have to test it." the next time i bake, i'll pass it to the closest person next to me. i get the recipes from here and it's just so good! *starts salivating*

i've been looking at pictures - oldest, older and recent. it's horrible. my weight is constantly fluctuating and never consistent. for some reason, people think it's a good idea to take candid photos. it's not. when i am unaware that i am being photograph, i always look grumpy and gross.

i do want to be grateful for the things that i have rather than constantly be complaining about the things that i don't have. so i've decided to change the things that i don't like about myself and those that i can't do anything about, compromise and work with it. i have to start listing out my new years resolutions and make it work.

anyway..

working out? .... should i?...:S